Hello! I'M ALIVE!!

This isn't a long post. I'm sorry. =(
It's just a post to say "HI!!!" and I'm still alive and breathing and well. =)
I've been trying to focus on school more than anything else, because I should be finished next week!!! I'll try to fit a nice long post in between though for y'all. =P

Hmmm???????

Does it bug you now? hmmmmm? =) hehehe All Time Low rocks...

Play it to see what it is... =D

UPDATES!!!

UPDATES!!!!!! Cuz you're all so stalker-ish and need to know everything about my life. Heehee.

Saw Ironman yesterday...IT WAS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't even begin to describe it's awesomeness...Meghan can vouch me. It's my new favourite movie. Seriously. (Did anyone notice the 'u' in 'favourite'? haha those Brits. They have such an effect. =P)

I forgot to welcome Nina to my blog!!! I'm sorry Nina, you have your very own mention here. =) thanks for checking out my blog and commenting, you're always welcome! Beware of my craziness though...just saying.

Last weekend I went to a girl conference with Tori, Ashlee, Kaeleigh and Brianna. It was amazing. I learned so much about my Lord and Savior I had forgotten. Like how much He loves me. =) The whole experience was pretty new and different, but I liked the camp. The speaker, Bethany Needham, was soooo funny! It was her first time speaking, but it sure didn't seem like it.

Anywho....what do I say now...?

I Am A Christian

I wish I written this. =) It says exactly how I feel.

Christians - By Maya Angelou

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin".
"I'm whispering "I was lost, Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than you,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow.

It's so weird when I think about who I was about a year ago. I've changed so much it actually freaks me out a bit sometimes. I'm still the same person, most of the same interests, likes, dislikes. But I've matured, and realized so many things about life. And another weird thing is, I'm going to keep changing. So maybe a year from now I'll look back and be amazed at my silliness or ignorance.

On a less serious note, I have vacation this week!! =) Soooo happy!
Pride and Prejudice was amazing. Bekah was incredible, and I laughed a lot. Now I really have to buy the movie. =) Sense and Sensibility is a really good movie, I think you (all the people who love Pride and Prejudice) would love it. =) Maybe. I don't know. Watch it and tell me.
I have no idea what I'm doing this summer, I think I'm leaning toward not being a S-I-T at Berea. =/ Sorry Tori. It's just not working out so far. I'm still praying about it though. Your prayers would be much appreciated!! =)

Finally

My current (it changes often) favorite song, that I have replayed a billion times is "Finally," by Fergie. Now the cover of her single cd cover, is not the greatest...neither really is she. But this song is amazing. And I think if you ignore what she's most likely singing about (her fiancee), you can imagine it's you, to God. (I'm such a sap...) It's the most amazing thing. Here are the lyrics, and the music is beautiful too. I'm not exactly sure what the exact lyrics, because diffrent places have some different lines, and it's not completly crystal clear in the song. So here's what I thought it was.

Finally by Fergie

Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream
Cinderella theme
Crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside that there would come that day
That I would have to wait
Make so many mistakes
I couldn't comprehend
As I watched it unfold
This classic story told
I left it in the cold
Walking through unopened doors that led me back to you
Each one unlocking more of the truth
I finally stopped tripping on my youth
I finally got lost inside of you
I finally know I needed to grow
And finally my maze has been solved

[chorus]

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

I remember the beginning you already knew
I acted like a fool
Just trying to be cool
Frontin' like it didn't matter
I just ran away
Put on another face
Was lost in my own space
Found what it's like to hurt selfishly
I was scared to give up me
Afraid to just believe
I was in a jealous, insecure, pathetic place
Stumbled through the mess that I had made
I finally got out of my own way
I've finally started living for today
I finally know I needed to grow
And finally my maze has been solved

[chorus]

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though we will have our differences
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
It's the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

I just have to post this before Meghan does. Cuz she threatened she would.
So uhmm, Saturday, I learned something about myself.
I have an irrational fear of turkeys. Especially on the male turkeys, the thing that hangs down from their throat, apparently called the "wattle." ??
I mean it's just creepy!!! And maybe I'm really not afraid of turkeys, they were just very ominous that night...
Get it over with and take a good long, laugh. Then move on. =P

Ephesians 6: 10-13

This morning, (now actually) I felt myself going a bit...nutty. I felt stress from school and basically my life. I realized I needed peace, spiritually peace, so I started reading where I left on in Ephesians, (I love Paul's writings!!!) and I read these verses, and they're just amazing! They have to do with some of what I've been dealing with, and I just can't believe how good our God is. Does any of that make sense? Sorry my thoughts are a bit jumbled. =) Here are the verses!

Ephesians 6: 10-13
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but agaisnt the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spirtual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

SO AMAZING!!! Ahhhhh!! I'd say more about them, but my mom is telling me to come. I don't know what she wants me to do, but above these verses it says obey your parents...so no commentary for now. =)

Sometimes I wish people weren't so hard to understand.
Sometimes I wish people wouldn't stay quiet and hide their true feelings.
Sometimes I wish society just didn't...exist.
Sometimes I wish I could hide, and ignore all the issues around me.
Sometimes I wish we could just all be the same, no uniqueness...
Maybe then...there would be no jealously, greed, misunderstanding, pain, confusion.
But above all that; when I forget my petty problems, and my selfishness, He's there. He's in it all. He's with me always. If I can only put my pride away, and trust, I'll be ok.
All I want is honesty. Modesty. Love. Forgivness. Mercy. Understanding. THE TRUTH.
Can I only find that in Him? Prove me wrong world. That's all I wish sometimes...

I feel like posting, aren't you lucky? ^_^

My whole family is sickly. 'Cept my dad. Which is really good cuz it's tax season (he's an accountant) and it's his busiest time of the year.
But my mom, myself, Grace and Molly are all sick. So if you could, please pray for us! =) I really want to go to youth group. Who wouldn't????

My mom is making me read Shakespeare for school, and I choose Macbeth to start with, because it's a dark, morbid story. Ok not exactly morbid, but it has a lot of murder. I'm sorry but I like stuff like that!! Too much Monk, Psych and House. Hehehe.
I'm actually really enjoying it! Some of it I have to read twice, or thrice (that's a funny word), but I like it a lot. I tried reading Shakespeare a couple of years ago, and I didn't like it. But now that I'm older I can appreciate it. Maybe it's because I'm a hopeless romantic. (by the way, "romantic" doesn't always have to do with "love," it also can mean, "fanciful; impractical; unrealistic; imaginary; fictitious, or fabulous." thank you dictionary.com)
I don't think everyone can love Shakespeare, unless it's an acquired taste.
But I'm glad I do.

UpDaTe oN mY LiFe

Here's an update on my life, since I don't really know what else to post. Hehe. =)
I can officially drive today! My mom was willing to take me out to some parking lot, but I didn't really want to while it was wet out. Uhmm yeah.
I have acquired a superpower!! It's called "napping." I'm actually slightly digusted with myself because I can't stop myself from falling asleep when I'm on the couch or one of my lovely leather chairs. I think it's just a bunch of things hitting me at once.
I've discovered P.O.D. a Christian rock band. Go check out "Youth of the Nation" it's amazinggggg.
Emma has a blog!!! =) www.narnianwriter.blogspot.com. Go check it out!
I forgot to post that I went protesting at a Jehovah Witness Hall a couple of weeks ago with the Lareau's and their friends. It was really amazing, we didn't yell or anything, just held signs and smiled. If you don't know anything about the Jehovah Witnesses you should....GOOGLE IT!
Gosh I love to Google things. I'm such a Googler. (hehehehe)
I have a lot on my heart right now, so if I don't post for a little bit it's just cuz I have some spiritual and emotional sorting out to do.
I should mention the youth group all-nighter. It was so much fun!!! I felt like I was on drugs (to clarify I really don't know how that feels, HAHA.) the rest of the day, and time was really wacked out. But it was awesome. =)
Later.

Be not afraid of what Sophie can do to you

Meghan has forced me to take action. Well, post action anyways.

YES. I AM DRIVING IN 3 DAYS.
You have nothing to fear....yet.
If you would feel safter staying off the roads for the next 5 years until I move to South Carolina, be my guest.
Though I really don't think that's nessessary.
I mean, it was only a little tree. And the golf cart was fiiiiine.
Ahahah, just kidding. ;)
Yup so just because it's so awesome...I'm going to say it again...

I CAN (legally) DRIVE IN 3 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To Go...Or Not To Go Back All The Way To The Computer

Isn't it funny, when you go to the computer with a misson, you get sidetracked by checking blogs, your email, and reading the headlines.
Now you've forgotten what the heck you started out to do.
So you get up, log off the computer, and walk away.
As soon as you get back to the kitchen, you remember what you wanted to do.
Now all you have to do is decide if it's worth it to go back...

La de da la la la...

I'm hyper...and excited! =)

I have good reasons though. Hehehe.

Fudge

Is there anyone on this good green earth that doesn't like fudge?
What? No? Are you sure...?
That's what I thought... =)

Emo Graphic...I don't really know...

Uh yeah, I don't really know what this...is exactly. But I saw it on Google and was bored so yeah...I made some changes to it. Hehe. Tell me what you think.

Junior Mints <3

Oh my goodness...I am now addicted to Junior Mints.

Have you ever had one?? They're so delicious! So minty...and chocolatly. Yum...

So if anyone want's to give me some...feel free. =D

Here's a tip: They taste really good if you squish them in your mouth and you just suck on them...ohhh now I gotta go eat one. Hehehe.

Oh noes...I ate them all. =(

Many Words, Many Meanings

Do people speak just for the sake of speaking?
Do people know what is coming out of their mouths?
...Do people even care?
If you care about me, in any way, you will tell me what I need to hear.
But you will say it kindly, and you will not, be lying.
Say what you mean, mean what you say. Don't take it back.

My Pessimistic Thoughts...Care to Counter Them?

Just when I think the world couldn't possibly be more messed up then it already is..WHAM! I get hit by a surprise attack I wasn't expecting.

Sorry if I'm sounding a bit...pessimistic. You're just going to have to deal with it for now...

Survey

I'm bored, (don't hear that very often from me) and I don't really feel like posting a very, very VERY long post about the famine, so I stole this from Kaeleigh's blog. =) And I'm also changing my blog template because according to Naomi "everyone's blog is black." Besides, I'm sick of this one.


What is on your desktop wallpaper? a picture of my yard that my mom took.

What is your favorite zoo animal? pandas! <3

What was your favorite toy as a child? my beanie babies.

What food do you eat too much of? does tea count? Aha if it doesn't then um...I don't really know.

What kind of hairstyle do you have? layered in the front and back.

What was your favorite activity in gym class? I don't have gym...

What is on the shirt you’re wearing right now? Well, under my Patriots sweatshirt (I don't care that they lost, I'm still rooting for them!!) my gray Billabong shirt.

What is the picture nearest to you of? a picture of me and my friends Bethany and Becky because I never see them anymore. Also a picture of Meghan, Rachel and me, cuz we were about to fall off a tire swing, and it looks so funny.

What kind of salad dressing do you like? Greek, Italian and ranch.

Whats your least favorite food? eggplant, I guess.

What do you do on a Sunday night? dread school the next day.

If you could only use one condiment on your food for the rest of your life, what would it be? butter

What color are your sheets? blue

How big is your computer display? Uh...big enough

What pair of shoes do you wear most often? my beat up digusting sneakers/my chucks

What is your favorite game? I love the winking game, and as of this Saturday, games at the mall. =D

What is your favorite Thanksgiving food? turkey with cranberry sauce...yum

What is your favorite pizza topping? pepperoni, everything or peppers.

What time do you plan on waking up tomorrow? LATE! school vacation!!!!!!

What is your favorite day of the year? How can you have a favorite day? Everyday is amazing in it's own way.