I suppose you all deserve a post...even though I have no idea where anyone is..hmm. Why is the blogging world so quiet?
OH! I KNOW!!!!!
IT'S SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so psyched. =)
I have like no plans..except, read. paint. be with friends. and try to figure life out. Haha.
I just came back from a weekend at Newfound Lake with the youth group. It was incredible. So amazing. It's so beautiful up there, and being with people I'm comfortable with and whom I love is awesome. =) I had to make a list of all the things I need to remember, for a very long time.
Like singing Christmas carols, karaoke, in the summer. Classic youth group.
And there was a huge thunder and lightening storm, it actually started hailing.
Swinging in the hammock (I'm in love with hammocks now...I want one so badly. haha.) with Kaeleigh saving mutilated animal crackers by eating them to end their misery. We're girls...we're naturally compassionate. =D
I will definitely try to post this summer. We'll see if you do... =P

Life revolves around the need

Of having someone.

Causing every complicated feeling.

I don’t want to loose you

And there is nothing wrong, with

Telling me what you need

To keep our love strong.

Sanctus Real - We Need Each Other

Seems to me, that life has become one giant gray area. Maybe it's just my teenage brain confusing me. Or...maybe it's not.
I wonder a lot if it's my business to tell my friend ( all this is hypothetical) that she shouldn't be thinking like that. Should I back off cuz it's her business?
I wonder if I should keep my mouth shut when they're all talking about that "subject" too much...or should I say something because they're becoming obsessed?
Is it just my life that has become gray?
Some people pefer their life to be colorful. I like black and white. It might be boring at times, but you can see clearly. There isn't a haze of random colors blinding and confusing.
One day I know all the answers. The next day I know nothing.
One day I know what I believe, the next day I have no idea what's a lie and what's the truth.
It's infuriating, to wake up, know who you are, then later, wonder if you're the same person you were yesterday.
I don't know if it's my identity I'm trying to figure out. Or it's God's little reminder that I'm falling too far behind him. It's probably both.
I'm not depressed, just confused. I'm not unhappy, just feeling a little unbalenced. I know I'll figure it all out, eventually. I only know this, because I keep going back to the one thing that saves me everytime. And trust me, I need a lot of saving sometimes.
Part of me doesn't even know why I'm posting this. Haha. I want to know what you guys think. If you feel the same way sometimes. At the moment I'm just really confused about a lot. If you have any answers, let me know. =)

Hello! I'M ALIVE!!

This isn't a long post. I'm sorry. =(
It's just a post to say "HI!!!" and I'm still alive and breathing and well. =)
I've been trying to focus on school more than anything else, because I should be finished next week!!! I'll try to fit a nice long post in between though for y'all. =P

Hmmm???????

Does it bug you now? hmmmmm? =) hehehe All Time Low rocks...

Play it to see what it is... =D

UPDATES!!!

UPDATES!!!!!! Cuz you're all so stalker-ish and need to know everything about my life. Heehee.

Saw Ironman yesterday...IT WAS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't even begin to describe it's awesomeness...Meghan can vouch me. It's my new favourite movie. Seriously. (Did anyone notice the 'u' in 'favourite'? haha those Brits. They have such an effect. =P)

I forgot to welcome Nina to my blog!!! I'm sorry Nina, you have your very own mention here. =) thanks for checking out my blog and commenting, you're always welcome! Beware of my craziness though...just saying.

Last weekend I went to a girl conference with Tori, Ashlee, Kaeleigh and Brianna. It was amazing. I learned so much about my Lord and Savior I had forgotten. Like how much He loves me. =) The whole experience was pretty new and different, but I liked the camp. The speaker, Bethany Needham, was soooo funny! It was her first time speaking, but it sure didn't seem like it.

Anywho....what do I say now...?

I Am A Christian

I wish I written this. =) It says exactly how I feel.

Christians - By Maya Angelou

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin".
"I'm whispering "I was lost, Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than you,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow.

It's so weird when I think about who I was about a year ago. I've changed so much it actually freaks me out a bit sometimes. I'm still the same person, most of the same interests, likes, dislikes. But I've matured, and realized so many things about life. And another weird thing is, I'm going to keep changing. So maybe a year from now I'll look back and be amazed at my silliness or ignorance.

On a less serious note, I have vacation this week!! =) Soooo happy!
Pride and Prejudice was amazing. Bekah was incredible, and I laughed a lot. Now I really have to buy the movie. =) Sense and Sensibility is a really good movie, I think you (all the people who love Pride and Prejudice) would love it. =) Maybe. I don't know. Watch it and tell me.
I have no idea what I'm doing this summer, I think I'm leaning toward not being a S-I-T at Berea. =/ Sorry Tori. It's just not working out so far. I'm still praying about it though. Your prayers would be much appreciated!! =)