I suppose you all deserve a post...even though I have no idea where anyone is..hmm. Why is the blogging world so quiet?
OH! I KNOW!!!!!
IT'S SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm so psyched. =)
I have like no plans..except, read. paint. be with friends. and try to figure life out. Haha.
I just came back from a weekend at Newfound Lake with the youth group. It was incredible. So amazing. It's so beautiful up there, and being with people I'm comfortable with and whom I love is awesome. =) I had to make a list of all the things I need to remember, for a very long time.
Like singing Christmas carols, karaoke, in the summer. Classic youth group.
And there was a huge thunder and lightening storm, it actually started hailing.
Swinging in the hammock (I'm in love with hammocks now...I want one so badly. haha.) with Kaeleigh saving mutilated animal crackers by eating them to end their misery. We're girls...we're naturally compassionate. =D
I will definitely try to post this summer. We'll see if you do... =P

Life revolves around the need

Of having someone.

Causing every complicated feeling.

I don’t want to loose you

And there is nothing wrong, with

Telling me what you need

To keep our love strong.

Sanctus Real - We Need Each Other

Seems to me, that life has become one giant gray area. Maybe it's just my teenage brain confusing me. Or...maybe it's not.
I wonder a lot if it's my business to tell my friend ( all this is hypothetical) that she shouldn't be thinking like that. Should I back off cuz it's her business?
I wonder if I should keep my mouth shut when they're all talking about that "subject" too much...or should I say something because they're becoming obsessed?
Is it just my life that has become gray?
Some people pefer their life to be colorful. I like black and white. It might be boring at times, but you can see clearly. There isn't a haze of random colors blinding and confusing.
One day I know all the answers. The next day I know nothing.
One day I know what I believe, the next day I have no idea what's a lie and what's the truth.
It's infuriating, to wake up, know who you are, then later, wonder if you're the same person you were yesterday.
I don't know if it's my identity I'm trying to figure out. Or it's God's little reminder that I'm falling too far behind him. It's probably both.
I'm not depressed, just confused. I'm not unhappy, just feeling a little unbalenced. I know I'll figure it all out, eventually. I only know this, because I keep going back to the one thing that saves me everytime. And trust me, I need a lot of saving sometimes.
Part of me doesn't even know why I'm posting this. Haha. I want to know what you guys think. If you feel the same way sometimes. At the moment I'm just really confused about a lot. If you have any answers, let me know. =)